Hello Again, World

I have a habit of starting lots of blogs, tumblrs, and newsletters, writing enthusiastically in them for a few years, and then letting them fade away. For a while, I've had it in my head to pull all of my old forgotten posts together into a central place, but the effort seemed insurmountable. I wasn't sure I even remembered what all my old blogs were.

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Getting to Know NF-Core (Open Source Project Tours)

Open Source Project Tours are recorded sessions where an open source maintainer functions as a tour guide to their project, showing me the lay of the land and answering my questions about how their design reflects the relationships and needs of contributors and users. You can watch the full tour here. I've also created five clips of this interview featuring discussions about open source project lifecycles, a custom bot that rolls out syntax updates to over a hundred repos, the importance of reaching out to a project before making big contributions, learning from BDFL burnout, and stickers.

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FRAME-ing First Tasks

There are many ways for newcomers to participate in a project, from testing onboarding documentation to reviewing pull requests to showing up to community events. But it can be surprisingly difficult to find ways for newcomers to contribute code.

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Context-Building Tasks

Many potential contributors have a desire to contribute but lack knowledge about the codebase and the community that would help them contribute effectively. Context-Building Tasks are tasks which do not require a lot of context, at least at the beginning, but encourage the contributor to learn more and more context as they continue with the task.

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Six Ways to Onboard New Contributors

Onboarding new contributors is hard. There's so much they don't know. How is someone supposed to contribute when they don't know the codebase, the project infrastructure, community norms, or the specific people who can give them advice? Add in the fact that often new contributors have significant gaps in knowledge about the project's domain and/or the language(s) the project uses, and it's no wonder many new contributors get discouraged and give up.

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"It all goes back to what's best for the community": An interview with Python's Carol Willing

Carol Willing was a crucial part of Python's governance transition from a BDFL model to a Steering Council. She served on the first Steering Council and has also been involved with Jupyter and its governance. This interview was recorded in January 2023, as part of a research project led by Seth Frey and funded by the NSF's DASS grant program. The interview has been lightly edited for readability and shared with Carol's consent.

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Psychological Safety: An Exercise

In early 2024, PlasmaPy maintainer Nick Murphy asked me to help facilitate a workshop for their project. This "summer school" would bring together community members of all kinds, from undergraduates to faculty, from experienced open source contributors to people who barely knew what open source was.

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The Privilege of Play

"Move fast and break things" was the internal motto of Facebook up until 2014 they realized, a little belatedly, that perhaps a corporation with worldwide reach and hundreds of millions of active users shouldn't make recklessness its motivating principle.

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Play and Consequences

Imagine a child playing in a sandbox, dreaming up elaborate stories about the castles they've built with their sandbox toys. Now, imagine a group of eighteen adults, two teams of office co-workers, throwing around a baseball according to very precise rules. Those adults are playing too.

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Code as Contestable Law

People tend to think of laws as set in stone, but they're very changeable. They're changeable in at least two ways: the laws themselves can be altered, through formal legal mechanisms like passing a bill through Congress, or laws can change through how they're enforced on the ground.

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Five Reasons People Don't Give Feedback

In my last post, I talked about how all systems have flaws, and how these flaws require interpretive labor to be patched or worked around so that the system can keep running. These systems become dysfunctional when it is hard or impossible to learn from that interpretive labor what those flaws are. Without good feedback mechanisms, none of the flaws will be fixed, and the system will not adapt to changes.

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A Guide to Reading API Documentation

A lot of progressive data work involves moving data into and out of third-party tools. While Parsons aims to make that easier, it's still pretty hard. One skill that's really helpful is getting comfortable reading documentation, and in particular, API documentation. So: this is a primer on how to read API docs.

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Whose Context Counts?

I've posted before about why it's important to delegate decisions to the people impacted by them. For example, Toyota put the power to halt production in the hands of factory floor workers who were better able to see problems as they arose, and the German Army pushed local officers to be decisive in the midst of battle. This is such an effective strategy because factory floor workers and army officers tend to have much better knowledge of the local contexts where problems first arise.

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Three Governance Case Studies

One of my communities is choosing a new governance structure, and in preparation for our first conversation on the topic, I wrote up three governance case studies. I covered DisCOs (Distributed Cooperative Organizations), Enspiral, and Python.

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Facebook's Everything Problem

Facebook's 'Oversight Board' recently affirmed Facebook's choice to suspend then-President Donald Trump from its platform the day after the Capitol riots. Although many critics - including myself - support the decision to keep Trump off Facebook, we're not too pleased with the process itself. "[It's] a red herring, substituting a simulacrum of due process in certain high-profile cases for substantive reform," Will Oremus writes in a New York Times op ed. Oremus and others point out that while Facebook has promised to obey the content moderation decisions of the board, it can choose to ignore any policy recommendations. "[Facebook] did not empower the board to watch over its products or systems — only its rules and how it applies them."

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Collective Accountability in Digital Spaces

It can be a struggle to hold groups accountable for misbehavior, even when the group is structured through legal forms, with public membership and clear leadership. On social media platforms populated by anonymous accounts, with membership and leadership often informal and invisible, accountability feels like a pipe dream.

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Macros, Finally (Recurse Day 3)

When we left off, I’d written some rather ugly code that gave us the basic features of a madlibs program without using any macros. But the whole point of this project is to better understand lisp macros. So today I focused on refactoring my program to use macros instead.

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Recurse Day 1

Day 1 of my Recurse mini batch is complete! I spent a good portion of it meeting people and learning about the community, but I did also make some small steps on my project:

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A Bug Report

I just fixed a Django bug that took me ages to solve. Part of why it took so long is that the errors I was getting weren’t surfacing the right search results. So, in case anyone ever has a similar problem, I will record what happened here and hope the search algorithms send this their way.

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Knowledge workflows

I have read a great many non-fiction books in my life, and I remember the details of heartbreakingly few of them. Over the last year or so, I have worked to change that pattern.

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A Song for Occupations #4

The sum of all known reverence I add up in you whoever you are, The President is there in the White House for you, it is not you who are here for him, The Secretaries act in their bureaus for you, not you here for them, The Congress convenes every Twelfth-month for you, Laws, courts, the forming of States, the charters of cities, the going and coming of commerce and mails, are all for you.

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Legacies of Disruption

“Many scientists prefer not to think about politics, but the work that scientists do has always had political consequences, from the quiet tragedy of an understudied disease to the undeniable horror of a city destroyed in an instant.

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Martha Nussbaum on the Capabilities Approach

One prominent idea of rights, common in the US political and legal tradition, understands rights to be barriers against interfering state action: if the state just keeps its hands off, rights are taken to have been secured. The Capabilities Approach, by contrast, insists that all entitlements involve an affirmative task for government: it must actively support people’s capabilities, not just fail to set up obstacles. In the absence of action, rights are mere words on paper. Vasanti was not beaten by the government of Gujarat; she was beaten by her husband. But a government that does not make and then actively enforce laws against domestic violence, or give women the education and skills they need to get a living wage if they leave an abusive marriage, is accountable for the indignity such a woman endures. Fundamental rights are only words unless and until they are made real by government action. The very idea of “negative liberty”, often heard in this connection, is an incoherent idea: all liberties are positive, meaning liberties to do or to be something; and all require the inhibition of interference by others.”

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Play and Consequences

Imagine a child playing in a sandbox, dreaming up elaborate stories about the castles they’ve built with their sandbox toys. Now, imagine a group of eighteen adults, two teams of office co-workers, throwing around a baseball according to very precise rules. Those adults are playing too.

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Positive Capability

I posted a few months ago about negative capability – that is, the ability to tolerate uncertainty, “when a man is capable of being in uncertainties, mysteries, doubts, without any irritable reaching after fact and reason.” Coined by the Romantic poet Keats, the term is easily associated with art but applies in all disciplines and all areas of life. Uncertainty pervades everything. So it behooves us to come to terms with it.

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Degrees of Separation

With the exception of rare contrivances like king’s missives and broadcast television, we learn most of what we learn and meet most of the people we meet through networking. This has always been true, but it’s clearer than ever with social media. To be honest I rather like it. When a friend I trust or a writer I admire shares a link I tend to follow along enthusiastically.

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Agency and Trust in a Digital Democracy

Last week I was on a panel about ‘Democracy and the Digital Commons’ at Suffolk University. At the start of the panel, each of us gave a 5-10 minute talk to help frame the discussion. While there’s no transcript of the panel itself, here are my notes for the intro. (Quick context: each of us tied our talk to the Boston Marathon bombing and in particular Reddit’s response to it.)

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Power, Judgment, and Love

Back in high school and college, I had friends who offered to do tarot readings for me. I always turned them down. “What a dumb idea,” I’d think. “How could a deck of cards predict your future!”

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Super Princess Saves the Night

Almost five years ago now, frustrated by the lack of trans-inclusive children’s books that my best friends’ kids had as options, I sat down and wrote a story about a tiny trans/gender non-conforming superhero named Super Princess. It’s so exciting to finally be able to put this book out into the world. This is a story about the magic of empathy and the importance of approaching the world with love instead of fear.

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The burden of doubt

We often talk about giving people the benefit of the doubt, but seldom talk about its opposite, to the point that no agreed upon phrase for it exists. The best I could come up with is the “burden of doubt”, which largely applies to courtroom settings. Even with the help of judicial documents, the phrase is not very popular.

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Hannah Arendt, Responsibility and Judgment

“[Socrates] adds that as far as he himself is concerned he believes that “it would be better for me that my lyre or a chorus I direct were out of tune and loud with discord, and that most men should not agree with me and contradict me, rather than that I, being one, should be out of tune with myself and contradict myself”. The key notion in this sentence is “I who am one” which is unfortunately left out in many English translations. The meaning is clear: even though I am one, I am not simply one, I have a self and I am related to this self as my own self. This self is by no means an illusion; it makes itself heard by talking to me - I talk to myself, I am not only aware of myself - and in this sense, though I am one, I am two-in-one and there can be harmony or disharmony with the self. If I disagree with other people, I can walk away; but I cannot walk away from myself, and therefore I better first try to be in agreement with myself before I take all others into consideration. This same sentence also spells out the actual reason it is better to suffer wrong than to do wrong: if I do wrong I am condemned to live together with a wrongdoer in unbearable intimacy; I can never get rid of him.”

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50 ways to win the midterms

The problem is all inside your head she said to me The answer is easy if you take it logically I’d like to help you in your struggle to be free There must be fifty ways to win the midterms

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Rules don’t apply themselves

There is a lot to be said about what happened to Serena Williams and Naomi Osaka yesterday, but this tweet by Jennifer Richeson captures the analysis of the incident that’s most relevant to this blog:

Quick decisions

Last week I went to a rally to protest a series of raids by ICE in my city. The rally turned into an unplanned march through the streets, and I had to make two quick decisions: first, whether to join the march, and second, whether to remain in the street when the police started to give warnings.

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Money, and the violence of lost context

It is in the very nature of a question like “What do I owe my parents?” that there is not and can never be a final, numerically answer. It is a question that we re-visit and re-negotiate every minute we are with them; obligation and love form an endless Möbius strip, through which our complex interdependence on each other makes the idea of paying off that debt – and of thereby severing the relationship – a sort of bitter joke. Precisely because it is a non-monetary “debt,” its function is to be an unpayable and unbreakable bond, one whose dividends never end and one that could and will never default.

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The more things change

This is a quote from Norman Thomas’s Is Conscience a Crime?, a book about conscientious objection during WWI from the wizened vantage point of 1923. Thomas was a six time socialist candidate for President; Secretary Baker, referred to here, was the Secretary of War under Woodrow Wilson.

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Hannah Arendt on the role of reflection in political and moral behavior

Socrates, however, who is commonly said to have believed in the teachability of virtue, seems indeed to have held that talking and thinking about piety, justice, courage, and the rest were liable to make men more pious, more just, more courageous, even though they were not given either definitions or “values” to direct further conduct. What Socrates actually believed in in such matters can best be illustrated by the similes he applied to himself. He called himself a gadfly and a midwife, and, according to Plato, was called by somebody else an “electric ray”, a fish that paralyzes and numbs by contact, a likeness whose appropriateness he recognized under the condition that it be understood that “the electric ray paralyzes others only through being paralyzed itself. It isn’t that, knowing the answers myself I perplex other people. The truth is rather that I infect them also with the perplexity I feel myself.”

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PyCon

PyCon is one of my favorite events - the only big conference I’ve been to that feels like a small one. This year it was in Cleveland, Ohio, not too far from where I live, so three other pythonistas and I piled into a car together and turned it into a road trip. We had a blast and it made PyCon seem even more like a summer vacation.

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A matter of trust

This originated as a post to a mailing list on the subject of blockchains and how they might help the cause of open science. The quote below is the claim I was directly responding to.

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Levy on intermediate group power

The point is partly an intergenerational one. Recall from the previous chapter the idea that inequalities of outcomes in one generation becomes inequalities of opportunity in the next and its analog: free associations in one generation become inherited ways of life in the next. This is a necessary truth; children are born into particular times and places and social worlds that have been shaped by the choices their parents have made. This does not simply mean that the parents were free and the children were not; it was also true of the parents that they were born into particular times and places and social worlds. If the parents had some freedom to reshape their worlds in partially original ways, to join or form groups into which they were not born, then the children also have some such freedom. But there could be a narrowing over time; parents can join groups or adopt ways of life that leave their children with fewer choices than they themselves had.

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Alinsky on doubt, compromise, and the letter of the law

I detest and fear dogma. I know that all revolutions must have ideologies to spur them on. That in the heat of conflict these ideologies tend to be smelted into rigid dogmas claiming exclusive possession of the truth, and the keys to paradise, is tragic. Dogma is the enemy of human freedom. Dogma must be watched for and apprehended at every turn and twist of the revolutionary movement. The human spirit glows from that small inner light of doubt whether we are right, while those who believe with complete certainty that they possess the right are dark inside and darken the world outside with cruelty, pain, and injustice. Those who enshrine the poor of Have-Nots are as guilty as other dogmatists and just as dangerous. To diminish the danger that ideology will deteriorate into dogma, and to protect the free, open, questing, and creative mind of man, as well as to allow for change, no ideology should be more specific than that of America’s founding fathers: ‘For the general welfare’. (p. 4)

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Identity fragments

In an essay at Brain Pickings, Maria Popova sketches out a conception of identity as a collection of fragments which is, paradoxically, being repressed and sanded down by identity politics:

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Feeling good vs doing good

Back in college, I based my Division III (senior thesis) research on a set of empathy studies by Nancy Eisenberg. Eisenberg’s line of research hinges on a distinction between two different kinds of empathy: empathic concern, the ability to recognize and care about the hurt others feel, and personal distress, the experiencing of the other person’s hurt yourself. Counterintuitively, personal distress is not positively associated with helping behavior. In fact, it may even decrease the likelihood of helping, if there’s an easy escape route away from the empathy-provoking situation.

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The yin and yang of questions and answers

In a previous post, I wrote that asking questions is harder than answering them, although I qualified that in a big way with “answering [questions] involves going back over and over again and updating our hypotheses, which makes answering questions feel hard”. I want to revisit this claim.

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Hard and soft sciences

Back when I was a research scientist, I straddled the boundary between “hard” and “soft” sciences. I did social psychology, which is a pretty soft science as sciences go, but I paired it with biology and physiology in general and endocrinology in particular, which meant getting a taste for some of the harder stuff.

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A flight out sideways

This is a short and subtle piece by Diana Senechal about sexual harassment claims and our response to them. I by and large agree with it, but I like it mostly for the poem (or, well, stanza of a poem) it introduced me to, Robert Frost's The Wood Pile:

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A perfect circle

Objective truth exists in the way that a perfect circle exists. They're both useful constructs, helpful for comparison and for motivation, but we must be careful in how we apply them.

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New blog

Things have been quiet on this here tumblr, in part because I have taken to blogging about a subset of topics here. If you’re interested in my thoughts about “humans and how we interact with each other, with a focus on how we can better deal with complex and large-scale social situations”, I recommend following my new blog as well.

Beware of defaults

I spent a good portion of yesterday staring at my Django test cases and whimpering. No matter what I tried, no matter how thoroughly I flushed the database between each test case, state seemed to be persisting from test to test. “How is this happening?” I howled to my computer.

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Science vs Software

Andrew Gelman has a brief post up on his blog comparing the way bug reports in open source software are received to the way many researchers respond to criticisms of their work. The comments there are good, and cover my first reaction, which was, "Developers respond well to bug reports?" But that's a bit tongue in cheek. I do think that, overall, developers are a bit more responsive to bug reports than scientists are to published criticisms of their work. Here are my theories as to why that is:

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Wild times

It’s late Friday night, technically Saturday morning, and like a party animal I’m up googling, “Could someone mess up my server if I let them run arbitrary Python code with no imports.”

Seminars and scarcities

Catching up on the Crooked Timber archives today, I saw they’ve done several seminars since last I looked, on three books/series I’d love to read: Jo Walton’s The Just City and The Philosopher Kings,Ada Palmer’sTerra Ignotaseries,and Cory Doctorow’sWalkaway.For those of you unfamiliar with Crooked Timber, it’s a community blog and their ‘seminars’ are when people all post reviews and reflections on the same work within a short period of time.

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Openly structured communities

If someone asks me, “What is open source software?”, I have an obvious answer: “Software that is licensed as open source and makes its source code available for users to review, modify and share.” Ditto “What is open science?”, to which I’d respond: “Science that is made available to review by anybody and available to reproduce by anyone with the necessary skills and equipment.”

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Points and Patterns

I’ve been thinking recently about the human tendency to try to put things in context, to search for patterns across different situations and conversations. It’s something I do a lot, and that my friends and the communities I’m a part of do constantly as well. Here are some examples from just the last week or so:

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Not giving up

I visited House Oversight Committee Chair Jason Chaffetz’s office today. If there’s nothing else good to say about him (and there may not be) at the very least his staff is warm and polite, even when you are implying things about their boss.

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Let’s say

Let’s say you’ve got an engineer or other employee who costs you $150,000 a year in salary & benefits. And let’s say they lose just 2 days a year to dealing with problems caused by underfunding of the FOSS projects they work with – bugs, missing documentation, lack of features that would make life so much easier.

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A Python Testing Demo

The intro to testing session I ran on Saturday went well. Unfortunately the resolution on Hangouts on Air recordings is not good enough to read my code, so it’s pretty much unwatchable (though folks who saw it live were able to see what I was doing).

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Testing 1, 2, 3

This Saturday at 11am EST I’ll be running a remote workshop with PyLadies on getting started with testing. If you’re a lady or genderqueer/non-binary person who wants to know more about the nitty gritty of unit tests and integration tests or maybe just the high level conceptual stuff like “why do people do this to themselves” you should consider signing up. I’m not sure if there’s an official cap but I know there are a lot of people enrolled (90ish! o.O) so it’s probably a good idea to RSVP if you’d like to join.

I came up with over a dozen app-related puns for this title and they were all app-alling

Last fall I had a bit of free time and thought I’d try out making apps. It was definitely a learning experience! I got to work with Java for the first time in a long time, and with the Android ecosystem. Said ecosystem has its good parts and its frustrating parts, but let me just say: I love Android Studio. I’d marry it, if people were allowed to marry integrated development environments.

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Hat cookies forever

I have never much liked Hamentaschen but it turns out “cookie” and “hat-shaped” are not terribly limiting constraints and much deliciousness can be fit within them.

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.conf

So, LibrePlanet happened this weekend. It’s one of my favorite conferences, and not just because it’s local. This year Deb Nicholson and I ran a pre-conference workshop for free software projects to improve their usability and new contributor onboarding, hosted by the lovely folks at Bocoup. According to our participants it was a smashing success. Deb and I are writing up a guide so that other FOSS conferences can run similar workshops.

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What’s a pirate’s favorite programming language?

Today I had the pleasure of speaking to a Mozilla study group about The Little R’er. The Little R’er is a project of mine from about a year ago - it’s basically The Little Schemer for R. Or, rather, the first few chapters of the Little Schemer for R. R is, in my opinion, a much less elegant language than Scheme and I found that the socratic method eventually broke down as a pedagogical tool. The discovery of silent recycling did not help my enthusiasm levels either.

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Debugging notes

I spent a couple of hours today wrestling with encodings. Writing out the details here to help me remember, and perhaps save someone else from grief.

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How to find a statistically significant other

Modern dating is full of choices, whether between strangers at a bar or profiles on OkCupid. With so many options, it’s important to be rigorous in your search for a statistically significant other. Here are some tips to help you correlate with others.

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Self and performance

When David Bowie died two weeks ago, I felt sad, but it was nothing compared to the outpouring of grief and remembrance from friends and from the culture at large. I have always liked Bowie’s music, his style, his interviews, the characters he’s played in movies. But I never quite got Bowie.

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Another year, another Mystery Hunt

Mystery Hunt was this past weekend and as usual I enjoyed the hell out of it. Highlights included Molly’s epic history rap battle, every puzzle name in the Lovecraft-themed round, and helping to solve a number of metas. The Dreamtime meta-meta was particularly fun, so that’s the puzzle I’ll explain, rot13’d to prevent spoilers. You can skip the gibberish if you just want links to my favorite puzzles.

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Some Books

I’ve been reading a lot lately, but slowly. My new note-taking system seems to double or even triple how long it takes me to get through a book. Part of me wants to say “screw it all!” and go back to flying through non-fiction like novels but I can already tell how much more I’m retaining now that I’m actually writing stuff down.

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Stories we can‘t stop telling

I’ve seen a lot of trickster villains recently. Of course, tricksters are nothing new under the sun - they’ve been an archetype for a very long time - but I’ve seen a lot of them lately and I’ve noticed a bit of a pattern: trickster villains tend to be paired with vigilante heroes.

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Adventures in cake

For my birthday this weekend I tried to make a Zoetrope cake. I was inspired by Alexandre Dubosc, whose cakes you should definitely look at after this one, because mine does not benefit from the comparison. I’m putting the gif below a cut, as it may be a bit of a migraine or seizure trigger.

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+1 Client

Last month I quietly launched a new company, Galaxy Rise Consulting. Yesterday, my first client Sumana Harihareswara less quietly launched her new company, Changeset Consulting. If you need advice, auditing, internship support, release management, sprint prep, or anything like it for your FOSS project, I highly recommend Sumana. And if you need a website, app, or data science project developed, I highly recommend me. ;)

Speaking Goals

Chiu-Ki and Cate from Technically Speaking have challenged people to make and publish a list of public speaking goals for 2016. My goals for this year are fairly modest, as I’m no longer working with an organization that will pay my way to conferences, but that does lead to an obvious first goal:

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Sudo make me an operating system

Yesterday I backed up my entire computer, deleted and resized some partitions, and then attempted to upgrade my operating system from 32-bit to 64-bit. I was following this guide, which unfortunately doesn’t tell you to follow the instructions as root from the beginning. The result? Halfway through the process, I deleted my 32-bit version of sudo in order to install the 64-bit one.

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Mobile debugging

I recently made myself a new personal website, and I noticed there were a couple of problems with the mobile version: the font-awesome icons weren’t displaying, and the collapsed, mobile-friendly navbar wasn’t expanding.

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Proof is the bottom line for everyone

A few days ago I was playing Set with friends when one of them asked how many cards could be put down without making any sets. Someone else responded that whatever the answer was, there was probably a very sound mathematical/logical reason for it. After a bit of thinking I came up with this:

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Introduction

It’s been about a year since I’ve blogged regularly. My perfectionist tendencies started getting the best of me - every post needed to be essay-like, completely thought out.

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Moving On

Back in February 2013, I ran my first Open Source Comes to Campus event. It was a snowy day with a small but enthusiastic turnout. At one point during the workshop at the end of the day, a student I was pairing with said something which has stuck with me ever since: "Today has been very empowering for me regarding my computer and the ways I can manipulate it."

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A Semester of Events

## (17 of them!) Last fall, we ran seventeen events at campuses around the country, reaching hundreds of students and making abundant contributions and connections. Here's a whirlwind tour of our semester:

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A Brief History of Humankind, briefer

A few months back, a friend recommended watching the videos from a Coursera course, A Brief History of Humankind. I recently finished, and I second the recommendation. The lectures are engaging and encompassing without being overly shallow, and I like Yuval Harari's approach of describing theories while continuously pointing out their contradictions and uncertain nature.

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Money is hard, too, but you knew that

I received a number of comments regarding my recent posts (1,2) about how abstraction/quantification of trust leads to negative consequences such as competition, social judgment, and "gaming the system". This does not surprise me, because my model for quantifying trust is money. And it is hard to find a technology more profoundly impactful and more deeply flawed than money.

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Certainty

I have a habit of qualifying my statements with estimated likelihoods and error bars. "I think about ten people are coming, plus or minus two." "I'm, like, eighty percent sure that it runs on Windows." I worry that it comes off as an affectation, but I also worry that I'm not conveying my level of certainty effectively. *I* know how certain I am, and it pains me when that information gets lost to the ambiguities and inefficiencies of the English language. (I'm told that qualification by certainty is built into Lojban, which I believe with 99% certainty.) When I send my female friends cover letters and grant proposals, they strike out words like "I think" and "I believe" and "probably" and "try". I let them do it - we all know that there's a confidence gap that disadvantages women - but it chafes. Aside from dangly earrings, uncertainty is the aspect of femininity I am most comfortable with. Perhaps too comfortable.

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Be a poster child!

Would you like to present at an open source conference, but aren't sure what to talk about, or feeling shy? A poster can be a great way to get started. Not only are they less nerve-wracking to present, they're often more likely to be accepted than talk proposals. Yesterday evening, October 1st, we held a meetup on our IRC channel to brainstorm poster ideas for PyCon 2015.

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List

Things I've accomplished recently, and future plans, offered up as justification for the lack of a "real" post:

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Supporting AdaCamp and the Ada Initiative

If you've never been to a feminist conference, you're missing out. If you've never found yourself surrounded by dozens of brilliant, empathetic, creative and determined women, you should consider giving it a try. If you've never gone from learning about how open source cloud computing platforms work straight to a discussion of microaggressions and how to deal with them, finishing things off by sharing your favorite feminist response gifs - well, maybe you should come to AdaCamp.

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Just one in a crowd

A few months ago, I joined a project called Crowdstorming a Dataset. It's a project affiliated with Center for Open Science and its basic premise is this: what if you gave a single dataset to dozens of researchers, and asked them to prove or disprove a particular hypothesis? What are the different analytical approaches they might take? Would they all give similar answers? Once they're given the opportunity to give and receive feedback, would their answers and methodologies converge?

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How to hit a softball

I did a lightning talk at AdaCamp called "how to hit a softball". This talk was born of frustration: the only activity I participate in which is less gender-diverse than open source software is softball. I've played in games where I'm the only woman on either side, out of 20+ people.

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When Women Refuse

Earlier this week, after the UCSB shootings, Deanna Zandt started a tumblr to document violence against women who refuse or reject men. She was inspired by Kate Harding, who had been tweeting links to some of these stories as a way of explaining that violent male entitlement was not unique to Elliot Rodgers but is endemic to our culture.

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Support Publication of Clinical Trials for International Clinical Trials Day

Today is International Clinical Trials Day, held on May 20th in honor of George Lind, the famous Scottish physician who began one of the world\'s first clinical trials on May 20th, 1747. This trial discovered that vitamin C deficiency was the cause of scurvy. While it and the other life-saving trials that have been conducted in the last two hundred and sixty seven years are surely worth celebration, International Clinical Trials Day is also a time to reflect on the problems that plague the clinical trials system. In particular, the lack of reporting on nearly half of all clinical trials has potentially deadly consequences.

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Short Event, Big Impact: Open Source at SUNY Stony Brook

I spent weeks going back and forth with Hanne Paine, a student and open source enthusiast at SUNY Stony Brook. For every date she suggested, we already had an event planned. Finally, we decided to wait until the fall to hold a full workshop. I felt badly, though. I knew I'd be passing through New York City in April, right around the dates she'd been pushing for. "How about I just stop by for a couple hours on a week night and do a short intro presentation?"

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Focus

I am borrowing a very nice camera for work. I'll be returning to my regular (broken, fuzzy, cell phone) camera tomorrow, so I thought I'd grab the chance to explore how manual focus works. These are pictures from my Sunday morning walk.

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On Solutionism and Lolcats

Spending as much time as I do teaching, writing and thinking about technology, I come across solutionism a lot. (From the link: Morozov defines solutionism as "a pervasive and dangerous ideology\... that recognizes problems as problems based on just one criterion: whether they are 'solvable' with a nice and clean technological solution".)

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Summer Internships for Open Source Enthusiasts

It's the heart of internship application season, and we want to spread the word about opportunities to contribute to open source this summer. The following list of internships are all funded, open to (though not always limited to) students, and taking place over the summer.

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100 beautiful things

A while back, when I was still volunteering for Samaritans, I had a particularly rough evening. I don't remember why: might have had a long conversation with a desperate caller, or a run of calls from harassers. (Yes, that's a thing. A really unfortunate thing.) Or perhaps I was in a bad mood from something else entirely, some other aspect of my day. In any case, I decided to immerse myself in things that made me simply, inescapably happy. So I started this tumblr. I've added to it on and off ever since, whenever I come across something that makes me deeply happy to be alive. Like frost flowers:

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Introducing setup sprints

On Tuesday night we had our first official setup sprint -- an IRC get together where OpenHatch volunteers test an open source project's installation and contribution process and documentation. Our inaugural project was Oppia, a tool which helps non-technical users create interactive educational activities online. Three volunteers (Carol Willing, Anurag, and myself) spent two and a half hours working with Oppia maintainer Sean Lip testing and improving documentation. The quick, casual feedback process meant we made a bunch of changes, including restructuring the documentation to be easier to navigate, adding explanations (and/or links to tutorials/guides) where documentation was too terse, and changing the output of the testing suite to be more understandable. We also managed to create the project's 100th issue.

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All the field's a stage

My good friend, a theater professor, is interested in sports as performance, but isn't too familiar with most sports. I collected the following links to send to her, and thought I'd share them here as well:

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A privilege I wish I didn't need

My aunt died this week. She was a private woman who tried to keep her internet presence to a minimum, so I won't memorialize her here, except to say that she was an incredibly gracious, giving person and a loving aunt.

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What contributing to open source can give back to you

Contributing to existing open source projects isn't just about improving those projects -- it's a chance for contributors to grow, too. When we run Open Source Comes to Campus events, we love seeing students exposed to their first projects that aren't throwaway coding exercises. Working on open source projects can teach anyone a lot about software engineering and collaboration. Here's some of what *we've* learned:

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Open Source Comes to Campus

A little less than a year ago, I was asked to direct OpenHatch's Open Source Comes to Campus event series. Open Source Comes to Campus is a workshop designed to introduce college students to open source, to teach them how to use tools like version control and issue trackers, and to guide them through making their first contributions. When I joined, OpenHatch was averaging two events a year. I was asked, hopefully, if I could run seven events in 2013.

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Infrequently Asked Questions: Bloomington

*At each Open Source Comes to Campus event, participants ask unique, thought-provoking questions. We decided to write down these questions and answer them more fully on our blog. If you have any additional suggestions or advice, please add them in the comments!*

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Two Anniversaries

Today, September 11th, is the anniversary of a number of events, but two in particular are being talked about today: the twelve year anniversary of the World Trade Center/Pentagon attacks, of course, and the forty year anniversary of the overthrow and forced suicide of democratically elected president of Chile Salvador Allende.

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The perfect journal article

If I was the Supreme Dictator of Science, able to marshal all sorts of resources to support my decrees, I would require that every single journal article contain, in its supplemental materials:

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Networks

My sister came to visit this week and one of the places I showed her around was the Media Lab. She was curious about the display near the front door, which I had never really investigated. We ended up spending half an hour playing with it. It's called Immersion, and it's online as of today.

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The end of an era

I've been doing Iron Blogger, in one form or another, for almost two years now. That's over a hundred weeks of posts, with a few misses here and there, paid for in beer. I try to make each post substantive, meaningful to someone, even if just to me.

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Me vs Competition

When I was a young teenager, twelve-thirteen-fourteen, I played fairly high-level softball. I enjoyed the challenge of trying to hit sixty-mile-an-hour pitches. I enjoyed practicing and playing constantly with my teammates and the bonds that naturally arose. I enjoyed figuring out the optimal play, the optimal position.

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Pressure to publish and the prevalence of positive results

This PLoS One study attempted to look at how pressure to publish might influence the prevalence of positive results. The author, Daniele Fanelli, made an odd choice by using ‘papers per capita by state’ as the measure of pressure to publish. The state seems way too macro a level to look at. I would expect pressure to vary strongly between schools and between departments within schools. There’s no reasoning for this given in the paper - I suspect that it was just simpler to use this measure, already provided by the NSF, then to come up with a method for looking at individual institutions.

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Methods reporting in the fMRI literature

I spent three years working in fMRI labs. To this day it’s not clear to me if the field has exceptionally ambiguous standards, or if it’s only one of many scientific subfields based around new technology struggling to define good practice. Whether it’s got company or not, neuroimaging certainly has issues.

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Garden(ing) Party

It turns out the soil in our back yard is fairly toxic. My housemate Molly, rather than give up gardening, decided to invite a bunch of people over to help make raised beds in which to grow edible plants. I helped in the best way I knew how: by making a themed cake.

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Power failure

There’s a new article out in Nature Reviews Neuroscience about the failure of scientific studies in general (and neuroscience and fMRI studies in particular) to adequately power their studies. The NRN paper isn’t open access, but you can email the authors for a pre-print. There’s a good write-up at National Geographic.

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Word games

I've been hearing good things about the Capitol Words API for months now, so I decided to try doing something with it. I wrote a script which queries the API for instances of a given word and returns two text files: the first is a compendium of sentences from every time a Republican has said that word (in a given date range), and the second the same but for Democrats. I fed the results into a word cloud generator I found on github, which I modified slightly to suit my purposes.

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Open Data Day

This Saturday, February 23rd, is Open Data Day, "a gathering of citizens in cities around the world to write applications, liberate data, create visualizations and publish analyses using open public data to show support for and encourage the adoption open data policies by the world's local, regional and national governments."

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How to Find a Statistically Significant Other

Modern dating is full of choices: whether between dozens of handsome strangers out at a bar, hundreds of friends and friends-of-friends on social networking sites, or thousands of profiles on OkCupid or Match.com. With so many options, it's important to be rigorous in your search for a statistically significant other. Here are some tips to help you correlate with others.

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Most medical research: true or false?

A friend forwarded me this paper, “Empirical estimates suggest most published medical research is true”, perhaps in an attempt to challenge my cynicism. I like to believe I am open to being challenged, and I do recognize that purposefully cataloging problems with research leaves me biased. But I don’t think this paper is the best counterpoint.

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Release of toxics in MA over two decades

As I mentioned in my last post, I chose to look at the EPA Toxics Release Inventory this month. The full dataset was way too large for my little netbook to handle, so I filtered the results to my home state of Massachusetts, and downloaded it in csv format. I used this helpful pdf to identify the variables I was most interested in: year, total release of toxic substances, and whether the substance released was a carcinogen.

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At last year's Mystery Hunt, when I woke up early Sunday morning to discover that the coin had already been found, I turned to a teammate and said sadly, "I wish Mystery Hunt could go on forever\..."

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Bias in reporting efficacy and toxicity in breast cancer trials

A recent paper did an analysis of breast cancer studies published over the last 16 years. They evaluated 164 trials and looked at whether results re: the drug’s toxicity or overall survival rate was reported prominently in the abstract, within the article, or at all. They looked at who funded the work, the impact factor of the journal the work was published in, and most interestingly, whether the trial found positive or negative results.

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Pleasant Distractions

I had a conversation with some of my housemates earlier this week about our favorite games, and I thought I'd expound on a few of mine for just a bit. These are all browser-based games, so they're only a few clicks away.

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Replicability In Psychology Research

Perspectives on Psychological Science recently came out with a special issue on replicability in psychology research and its implications for the reliability and health of the field as a whole. They cite as motivation the last two years, which have been filled with fraud, admissions of questionable research practices, a published paper in a major paper claiming evidence of ESP, reports that researchers cannot or will not share data or disclose the full extent of their analyses, and the failure to replicate several major findings in the field.

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Critiquing Scientific Practice in 2012

I have a tumblr, Dismal Science, which I use to keep track of newspaper articles, journal articles, and blog posts on the topic of how scientific research is practised and the flaws and problems that have arisen. Before the archives grow unmanageable, I'd like to take a stab at organizing what I have so far. So here's a summary of the material I posted last year. (Many of the links themselves were not published/posted in 2012.)

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Uncited research

This article raises, for me at least, the interesting question of whether the large amount of research that remains uncited in medical/scientific literature is a good thing, a bad thing, or a neutral thing. I did a little more reading, and found some other posts on the topic.

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Review: The Signal and the Noise

When Nate Silver correctly called the winner of all 50 states in this year's presidential election (and 31 out of the 33 Senate races), how many people rushed out to buy his book, eager to learn how to make such spot-on predictions? How many were disappointed?

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Campaign Songs

On the six hour drive to New York City last week, my family somehow got on the topic of political campaign songs. Campaign songs today are pretty boring, because politicians just use popular music. Although it's kind of fun to watch Republicans try to find music made by artists who won't sue them to get them to stop using it.

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Citizen Science

This article focuses on making study results available to patients who are providing the medical data. But it touches on more general themes - on the right of patients not just to control their own data but to access the results of research into their illnesses, and to be empowered to do some of the research themselves.

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Underrepresentation of Women In Science

I normally do not post about sexism, racism, and other forms of bigotry in the scientific community here. While I obviously think they exist and am against them, it is ambiguous how these “isms” impact/bias the scientific literature. (I am sure they do. But perhaps in a less concrete way than, say, the file-drawer phenomenon, or clear misuse of statistics.)

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Psychology Links

I spent last Saturday teaching neuroscience/psychology to 100+ kids via Splash. It was a survey course, so there were a lot of references and recommendations I made, and some of the kids asked me to put them all in an email. It's a good list, so I thought I'd also share it here.

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Worked to Death

This post lists common ways that people used to die from their jobs. They're mostly due to inhaling toxic chemicals. One of them, Soot Wart, is a type of cancer that was commonly found among chimney sweeps. The discovery of this link between job and disease, in the late 18th century, was pretty vital in our early understanding of cancer.

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Retractions stigmatize scientific fields, study finds

The study, published this week as a National Bureau of Economic Research working paper, used the PubMed Related Citations Algorithm (PMRA) to fish out papers that are topically similar to retracted articles but written by different authors. After a retraction, the rate at which these related papers were cited dropped by 5.7% relative to a selection of control papers that were not related to a retraction.

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Busybody

I've been a bit busier than usual the last few weeks. Missed last week's post. More beer for everyone! Here's a list of things I've done between my last post and now. (Why yes, this is a pretense for skipping another week. Glad you asked.)

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Ada Lovelace Day 2012: Angela Zhang, Brittany Wenger, and Shree Bose - Teen Girls Fighting Cancer

Some of you who read this blog may know that a close relative of mine has been dealing with an aggressive cancer for the last year or so. When I say I admire the young women in this post, I don't just mean because they're intelligent, dedicated and accomplished. I also admire them for choosing to spend their time researching cancer, which is the leading cause of death in the developed world, and the second leading cause of death worldwide. Few people end up helping others as significantly as these young women have already managed - while still in high school.

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Meta

Last weekend I flew out to Urbana Champaign to give a talk at their annual Reflections \| Projections conference. The talk was on how to get started contributing to free software, and a big portion was on bugs - how to report them and to fix them. It was therefore painfully ironic when the free software I had used to prepare the talk - LibreOffice - essentially deleted the presentation an hour or so before I had to give it.

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Guess Who

This week I visited New York and stayed with my cousins while their mother was in the hospital. Over the course of several days, my younger cousin, K, and I hacked the board game 'Guess Who?'

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Puzzling

My sister asked me to make a puzzle hunt for her bachelorette party. While it's tailored to her interests, it should be possible for anyone to solve - and hopefully pretty fun, too.

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Plug It In

A week or so ago the founder of a feminist blog I lurk on asked if anyone could help update their commenting system. It was a real pleasure to realize that hey, this was totally something I could do.

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One time, at hackerspace freeschool camp...

Just finished off my three weeks at camp with an afternoon of making chocolate gears, legos, and chess pieces using the latex molds we created during the week. The chocolate gears did not actually function as gears, so I am 0 for 1 on attempts for my friend Dan's moving wedding cake, but I'm going to try again with better gears. (Also on the list of ideas to try: a sterling engine made of rock candy, and a helium-filled fruit leather balloon. I still like the chocolate gears idea best, though.)

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Making Things & Making Things Happen

Missed last week because I was so busy at camp. The first week of the summer is Girl's Invention Week and instead of the usual 7ish:1 ratio of boys to girls, we had forty awesome lady campers. We built a loom and an interactive mosaic from scrap wood, made soda using dry ice, programmed lots of video games with Scratch, went geocaching, had a thoughtful group conversation about gender identity and gender essentialism, and baked some delicious marshmallow bread. It was fabulous.

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The sopranos (and mezzo-sopranos, and contraltos)

For whatever reason, much of the music that I've found and liked has been by men. My favorite singers/bands/acts - Andrew Bird, Sufjan Stevens, Great Lake Swimmers, Paul Simon/Simon & Garfunkel - are all dudes. Not very cool. So half the purpose of this post is to get you all to recommend me some lady singers and songwriters.

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The Alcatraz Proclamation

41 years ago today, the US government forcibly ended the nearly two year long occupation of Alcatraz Island in San Francisco Bay. Alcatraz was a famous prison which closed down in 1963. A group of American Indians claimed the island while by citing a 1868 treaty which promised to return all abandoned and unused federal lands.

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Gamechangers

One of my favorite things to do at camp is to visit the game shelf. It's stacked high with donated games, most of which sit unused for months at a time. Many of the games are for children much younger than those who go to camp. Others are missing vital pieces or are simply way too bland to lure kids away from building treehouses and robots or hitting each other with boffer swords.

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If I Were a Network Executive...

I recently watched Miss Representation, a documentary about how limited and disparaging portrayals of women in mainstream media hurt society. While I agree with most of the documentary, I do think it skips right over a number of amazing female characters both past and present (I started to list my favorites, but I think that's a whole other post.) Obviously individual portrayals can't make up for the overall patterns of representation, which tend to feature young, white, thin, able-bodied women playing out tired tropes. There is plenty of room for criticism there. But for me, personally, what I want even more than better female characters on my television, is explicitly feminist shows.

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Open Science

Over the last week, I've come across a couple new 'science experiments' - that is, experiments in improving science by encouraging the involvement of the online public. The first one, Petri Dish, is basically a Kickstarter for science projects:

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Chametzcakes

When searching for recipes for our passover seder - an extra challenge with vegetarians and people with nut and gluten allergies sharing the table - we stumbled across this abomination:

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Holiday Spirits

In lieu of writing an actual blog post this week, here are some pictures of our easter keg hunt. (Apologies for the quality, it's a camera phone.)

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Under the Sea

I love making cakes, especially for friends' birthdays. Yesterday was my housemate Mitchell's birthday, and he requested a carrot cake but did not specify a shape. Given his ardent love for sea slugs, I decided to make him a sea slug cake:

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Upward and Onward

It's Women's History Month, which I'm going to use as an excuse to ramble about a very cool historical lady I learned about only recently: Victoria Woodhull.

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Too Hard For Science

Too Hard for Science? is a series on a Scientific American blog asking researchers what experiments they would do if money, ethics, or the laws of the universe weren't an issue. I think the idea for the series is brilliant, although somewhat disappointingly executed - the articles are all way too short, and some of the interviewees fail to actually propose impossible experiments, and just describe hard problems. That said, there are some real gems:

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You've Got a Song About Friendship

I had friends over for Valentine's Day, as I frequently do, and this year I decided to make a playlist of songs about friendship, which were astonishingly hard to find. Although to be fair, I did exclude some songs 'cause I didn't like them, but I should have been overwhelmed by options! Anyway, here is the playlist:

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Show Me the Stats: Correlation Coefficients

So. Correlations. They're fairly simple creatures: they measure the relationship between variables, without making any assumptions or assertions about cause and effect, dependence, or direction. Correlation coefficients range from -1 to 1, with -1 meaning a perfect negative correlation, 1 being a perfect positive correlation, and 0 meaning no correlation at all.

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Seriously.

The other day at work, while I was hanging around the coffee machine, I saw a flyer for an IAP (read: Jan Term) course on "Serious Games". It looked neat, so I emailed the instructor to get the syllabus, and I've started playing my way through. I figured I'd post my half-formed thoughts about how these projects work both as games and as tools to educate/persuade/mobilize people.

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Puzzled

The Mystery Hunt was last weekend. It was unexpectedly musicals-themed and expectedly exhaustingly awesome. I wanted to briefly highlight my favorite puzzles from this year:

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Show Me the Stats: Averages and Deviations

My previous post about p-values has reminded me that I've been meaning to brush up on my statistics. I'm hoping to do this by writing a series of tutorials for this blog, and to keep things interesting for my less statistically-inclined readers, the datasets I'll be using will be campaign finance and lobbying information from Open Secrets and Sunlight Labs. So come, join me as I learn about quantitative analysis and also the pervasive corruption of our government\... The data in this post are from .OpenSecrets.org and represent the total contributions from commercial banks to individual house members in the current (2011-2012) election cycle.

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Significance

![](/assets/shaunas-blog/images/blog/inconceivable.jpg) *"You keep using that statistical test. I do not think it means what you think it means."*

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Nature vs Nurture

There's a dispiriting article being passed around feminist-friendly corners of the blogosphere today. What makes this article different from all the other tired, sexist articles I've come across recently - and therefore what makes this article worth posting about, for me - is where it was published: Nature. Yes, *that* Nature - "the world's most highly cited interdisciplinary science journal". The same journal that first published the structure of DNA, first proved there was a hole in the ozone layer, first documented nuclear fission and the cloning of mammals, is the source of this drivel:

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Such a Beautiful Way to Waste Your Time

I'm in the middle of an incredibly busy month, so I thought I'd be efficient and document one of my favorite procrastination activities as a blog post. I call this activity "finding shiny things on the web". Today's theme is science and nature photos.

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Halloween

I was a mid-90s geocities page for Halloween. It was a fairly mediocre costume - I had a bunch of ideas for it, some of which worked and many of which didn't. I don't usually repeat costumes but I think I want to try to improve on this for next year.

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Three Talks

I've given three public talks in the last six months. What really strikes me is how different these talks were, in content, structure, and intent.

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Blinded By Results

Last night at a dinner party made up mostly of science folks, I pitched an idea that's been stewing in my head for a while: results-blind submissions reviews for journals.

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We Contain Multitudes

I have an idea in my head for an interactive fiction story: a depressed young man sits in a cafe, waiting for a phone call from his girlfriend. Depending on what happens - what she says, whether he even gets the call, whether he talks to the older man reading a paper or the little girl playing with his shoelaces, whether he springs for the expensive sandwich and finds out he's overdrawn his account, whether an overheard phrase or a stray shadow spark a memory - the young man experiences a different future. Sometimes he reaches out for help. Sometimes he goes home and kills himself. Sometimes he lashes out in anger and hurts someone. Sometimes an instinctive, kind reaction on his part saves someone else's life.

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What We Owe

"But congressman, are you saying that society should just let him die?" *Debate moderator to candidate Ron Paul. The audience with cheers and shouts of "Yeah!"*

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Hunting Grounds

The last two weeks my attention has been pretty well captured by Parts & Crafts, the summer camp my housemates run. They invited me to come teach this past session, which was themed 'Imaginary Worlds'. We made card games, choose your own adventure books, chocolate aliens, telegraphs - but by far everyone's favorite activity was the Puzzle Hunt.

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Pour some sugar on me…

The last couple of days have been FULL of cake. My friends' theater company turned five this summer, and they requested a cake from me to have at their celebration. They're called Flat Earth Theater, so the design for the cake was obvious:

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Stories for Days

Story a Day projects frequently result in large clumps of dross - I should know, I've done one myself. So when I stumbled across Ommataidia, an archive of over 1000 bite size stories written daily for years, I expected the same.

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Book lust

The other day I was talking with one of my housemates about putting shelves up on the wall outside my room. Now, I had a totally underhanded reason for wanting shelves there - I want the challenge of building them and putting them up. But her arguments were equally out of left field to me: she thought that walls of books were tacky.

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Some Body

I think bodies are neat. I always have, especially the insides. I think I'm the only person in the world to enjoy a root canal, thanks to the awesome dentist who explained to me what she was doing as she worked. (Did you know that the roots of a tooth are like a plant's, sucking up nourishing water?) A few years ago I lived with a med student. She snuck me in to their anatomy lab and showed me everything they'd been learning; even better, she let me hold and explore a human heart. !Heart and lungs from Did you know that you can carry tons of weight with your hair? That you can dissolve razor blades in your stomach? Your body is badass! Your liver especially. It performs over 500 different functions; it helps you digest, metabolize and pee, it directs your immune system, regulates blood pressure and blood coagulation, it's a storage house for vitamins, including years worth of vitamins A and B12 and of course, as everyone knows, it breaks down alcohol at the rate of roughly one margarita an hour. (And that reminds me - I'll spare you the details, but just so you know, the way that vomiting works is really, really cool.) Also, the liver can regenerate itself, even if over half of it is diseased or lost. The liver is like the undercover superhero of your internal organs. That said - I am, of course, a total brain partisan. Full of soft grey-white nerves winding and flashing, swimming with hormones and neurotransmitters, with a cobweb-like membrane that hugs it tight and washes it with fluid. The most beautiful part of the brain is the cerebellum, a primitive structure handles motor control. When you cut it open, you can see neuron bundles branching upwards and outwards like a thriving old oak tree. I even love the names scientists have given areas of the brain. The almond (amygdala, associated with fear and anger); the seahorse (hippocampus, associated with memory); the fornix, which yes, comes from the same root as fornication. "What?" you ask. In ancient greece, prostitutes frequently loitered underneath archways. *Fornix* is the greek word for arch, an apt description of this gently curving section of the corpus callosum, the tough bundle of nerve fibers which connects our left brain to its right. !Hot. I'm getting carried away here. I could go on like this for a while, but what I really want to talk about is a moment several years ago when I gave blood for the first time. As the nurse was labeling the bag, I asked her shyly if I could hold it. It was hot to the touch, in a weird but totally neat way, and my delight at the experience must have shown on my face because the nurse said, "No one ever asks to do that! You must be so comfortable with your body." And I just sort of gaped at her because that wasn't true at all. Not even close. Like many women - like many *people* - I grew up internalizing all sorts of little hatreds. I was too fat, my face too plain, my skin alternately too flaky and too oily, as if it too was fighting its own private war with itself. My front teeth were damaged from a highly competitive game of freeze dancing; like others, I spent years refusing to smile with my lips open. Like others, I avoided the mirror, hating what I saw. I never thought these two things were related. I mean, they weren't for me. I loved my insides, loved learning about them and imagining them. And I hated my outsides. I hid them as best I could, and when I thought of them, I disparaged them. For me, a huge part of accepting the quirks of my physical appearance has been learning to approach them with the same sort of curiosity and enthusiasm as I do the rest of my body. !a representation of a triglyceride Sometimes when I'm "feeling fat", I put my hand under my shirt and feel the soft, jiggling roll of my belly. I try to picture the fat cells - the adipocytes - that swell and deflate as fat is taken in and out of them. I picture the fat itself, in it's smallest form, triglyceride. Just a chain of atoms, far too tiny to even see, but there, resting below the surface of my skin, waiting to be broken down and released into my blood. I think of every missed breakfast, every day-long hiking trip, every teenage starvation diet. Without those little chains of atoms, the triglycerides my body so thoughtfully stored for me, I would have died. *With* those chains of atoms, I can go for weeks if I need to, living off of my my own body. Like the migratory birds who fly for days without stopping, I hold a tremendous storehouse of energy in the palm of my hand. Then there's the acne. I was told it would go away once I grew up, but it remains, ugly and sometimes painful. I went once, in college, to a makeup counter at the mall. The assistant there clucked her tongue and then smiled, coating my face with concealer from neck to temple. I looked at myself in the mirror and couldn't see the acne, but I couldn't see my own skin either - the light hairs of my cheeks, the little moles and freckles, the scar by my eye that I've had most of my life. I didn't buy the concealer. Now when I look in the mirror, I seek out the raised red bumps. I try to see them as a message from my immune system - the same one that's fought off chickenpox, pneumonia, and the common cold. I picture my white blood cells rushing to the pimple, throwing their arms out and shouting like Gandalf in the mines of Moria: "You shall not pass!"

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Blog Note; Art Rec

I've been sporadic about blogging lately, but that's all about to change: my friends/housemates Molly and Asheesh and I are doing "Iron Blogger". Basically, we try to post weekly, and for each week we miss we contribute \$5 to a communal pot. Once the pot's sizable enough, we split it three ways and go out drinking together. I plan to update with regularity and fervor, and laugh at Molly and Asheesh all the way to the pub. (It occurs to me that a *real* Iron Blogger competition would involve being given a random topic and 60 minutes to write a blog post. But it seems like the readers would be the real losers there\...) Anyway, on to the first blog post of a new era.

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Let us eat cake.

I've been doing a lot of baking lately. Last weekend I made banana bread, mango bread, and a vegan gluten-free chocolate raspberry torte all within a 24-hour period. This weekend, I devoted myself exclusively to a very important task: the making of my littlest friend's first birthday cake.

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Balloon Geometry

Yesterday my friend Nagle and I ran an activity at Bring Your Grandmother To Math at the MIT Museum (a part of the Cambridge Science Festival). A few days earlier, we'd spent an afternoon reading through Vi Hart's blog for inspiration. We looked at the Mobius strip music box, Penny sierpinski triangles, and followed a link to a tricycle with square wheels. We were briefly entranced by various foods in various shapes before finally deciding on a less messy version: balloon geometry.

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Matzah-rella Sticks

Occasionally I come up with puns that are, shall we say, executable? And although it may take me years to follow through on them, eventually I do. I'm not sure how many pesaschs have passed over without these, but finally! Here they are:

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Ilm-al Nafsiat: The Science of Self

I spent pretty much all my free time last week studying for the psychology GRE subject test, and I have to say that I resent how much I now know about Freud. It's not that I think studying the history of a discipline is pointless - far from it. But the history of psychology that the GRE tests is, how shall I put this\... painfully white and Western.

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Debugging

I've been tutoring a friend of a friend in Matlab, and we spent a good hour this afternoon chasing down a bug in his program. He asked how I can stand it, the constant trouble-shooting spiced up by the occasional epic search for a minor flaw\*. "Doesn't it drive you crazy?" he asked.

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Totally Gay Fiction

The blogs of my writing and editing friends have been buzzing today with the story of a YA author who was told by the editor of an anthology to change the romance in her story from gay to straight. It's satisfying to see the online community rally around the author, and I hope that something tangible comes out of this - say, a new commitment to encouraging work with gay protagonists. Perhaps an anthology!

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Walking Away

There's a provocative short story by Ursula Le Guin called *The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas*. You can read it online here, and I suggest you do so before going on, because I'm about to spoil it completely.

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Surreal Women

I've never really been a connoisseur of the visual arts. I'm not drawn to them the way I am to music or writing, so I don't really know much about them - any artists beyond the famous ones, the terms for techniques, movements, styles.

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Silence

I've put off posting my original fiction to this blog, because most of the stuff that I think is really good - that I'm really proud of - I'm trying to polish and submit for publication. Which leaves the 'halfway decent' and the 'truly terrible'. No one will ever get to hear the truly terrible, except for maybe my cat, but the halfway decent\... the halfway decent I'm going to start sharing here.

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Swimming in Harmony

The Great Lake Swimmers are one of my favorite bands, although I didn't really understand just how incredible they are until I got a chance to see them live. Sitting in the front row of a small theater is the best way to experience them - unless you can somehow convince them to play you a concert in the middle of the woods somewhere, or on a beach, or a mountaintop. Because the Great Lake Swimmers write love songs to, for, about nature.

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Born Digital

Found via a friend: the Electronic Literature Collection is a treasure trove of stories, statements, and pieces of art that use their electronic medium to confuse, provoke and entangle the audience.

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Natural Born Scientists

*Children are born true scientists. They spontaneously experiment and experience and reexperience again. They select, combine, and test, seeking to find order in their experiences - "which is the mostest? which is the leastest?" They smell, taste, bite, and touch-test for hardness, softness, springiness, roughness, smoothness, coldness, warmness: they heft, shake, punch, squeeze, push, crush, rub, and try to pull things apart.* \~ Buckminster Fuller

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A Recommendation

Reading a novel or story by Milan Kundera is not like reading anything else: he has a languid style which slides imperceptibly from narrative to essay and back again. His books are full of delicate caged moments set side by side with off-hand philosophy. He's never made me laugh or cry, but sometimes when I read him I have to put him down and close my eyes and just swim in his words for a while.

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Fun and Games

Hannukah has always been my favorite Jewish holiday. No fasting, no seders - just candles, latkes, and dreidels. Here's a confession, though. I don't like the dreidel game. It's - well, it's boring.

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Twenty-six Candles

My birthday was a couple of days ago. I got obsessed with making the electrically conductive cake described in The Hungry Scientist, only I didn't get a chance to re-read the recipe until the morning of, so when I discovered that I needed the rare (and expensive!) cake decoration silver leaf, I thought for sure that crushing disappointment awaited me.

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Beyond Belief

A few nights ago, Sprout had their monthly spaghetti dinner. Every month is a different theme, and I had been looking forward to this month's - mythology - with what might be considered excessive enthusiasm. The evening was heavy on puppetry, with an accordion-accompanied retelling of an old Yiddish folk tale, as well as a surrealist examination of a precious American myth: the failure of Reconstruction. (I am now tempted to go off on a rant about the election of 1876 - one of my favorites rants! - but I will save that for later.) There was also a performance by Molly Allis whose new album is a transformation myth. It's such a fertile topic, with so many people having so much to contribute, that they may even do a reprise (a retelling?) in the spring.

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There's No Crying Foul in Baseball

I went home last weekend, and I was excited for a chance to snuggle my cat, cook with my mom, and engage in the endless after dinner conversations my family manages so frequently to have \-- you know, the kind where your butt gets sore from sitting still and you go for thirds and then fourths because you've just had that much time to digest, but you can't quite bring yourself to say, "Okay, that's enough dissecting of Dr. Who/Beatles' rockband/the decline of rationality in modern political thought."

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Learning in the Time of Cholera

A few weeks ago, I spent the afternoon at Parts and Crafts, the learning-by-doing oriented summer camp a friend of mine co-founded. I wanted to try out a style of teaching I've been thinking a lot about lately. Inspired by role-playing and puzzle-hunting, I want to create expansive, immersive learning experiences which allow kids to "re-invent the wheel" as well as to see the cultural context in which technology is created and scientific advances are made. It's my hope to incorporate into each "experience" two or more of the following: science and technology, philosophical and political history, arts and literature, themes of social justice.

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Why the Stars Shine

A few months ago I was browsing through a comic book store with my friends Orli and Skim. You'd think a nerd like me would be a devourer of comic books/graphic novels, but I've actually only read a few series. Although those series (Y: The Last Man, Sandman) & Transmetropolitan, for the curious) have been pretty roundly fabulous, I've just never started reading regularly. In fact, at that point I'd never bought a single comic book.

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Questionable Content

I ask a lot of questions. I get curious about things I don't understand and, fortunately or unfortunately, I don't understand a lot of things around me. Sometimes I get lucky and I'm surrounded by people who can answer my questions. (For instance, last night at Sprout, I had, "How does a chop saw work?" and "What is polynomial time?" and "What is in this delicious soup?" answered quite satisfactorily.) Sometimes people don't know and just shrug. It is in these moments of great need that I turn to google.

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Delusions of Objectivity

As a psychologist, I find it extremely frustrating when people attempt to explain away gender differences as genetic or evolutionary, rather than exploring the role of socialization by an imperfect society. For one thing, it gives people an excuse not to confront injustice. After all, they're just doing what they're biologically programmed to do. For another, it's frequently shoddy science.

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How to Make an LED Bracelet in 10 Steps

The other day I was visiting my friend's summer camp when I saw a young camper fiddling around at the electronics table. She showed me the bracelet she had made by twisting wires together in patterns, and said she liked to have "a different take" on electronics from the boys at the camp. After talking a little bit about conductive thread (her mind, it was blown) we set about making a bracelet that incorporated a basic circuit. From our experiences, this is how you do it:

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Aliens Among Us

I've been an avid science fiction fan since I read Madeleine L'Engle's "A Wrinkle In Time" when I was a teensy one. Since then I've read Asimov and Bradbury, Le Guin and Heinlein, and countless others, and despite the feats of imagination and storytelling they've achieved, I have to say, you seldom see a depiction of an alien that beats real life earth creatures for their strangeness.

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Obama and the Fundamental Attribution Error

The transition from Bush to Obama has been a strange one for me. There is a certain ease to opposing someone whose ideology is so different from yours. There is no need to be subtle, to try and tease apart where things are going wrong - you know why they are doing this thing that you hate: because they don't value what you value.

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The Crimson Cauldron

I've been fascinated with volcanoes ever since I was a little kid, so of course the eruption of Eyjafjallajökull in Iceland has got me pretty excited. This picture from APOD is absolutely glorious:

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Ada Lovelace Day: Barbara McClintock

*Today is Ada Lovelace day, which means its time to celebrate women in technology and science! If you have the time, consider writing a blog or facebook post about a woman who has inspired you. Otherwise, feel free to browse the posts at Finding Ada and learn more about the women who've advanced our knowledge of the world. You can start with my post below, about pioneering cytogeneticist Barbara McClintock.*

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The Carrot and the Stick

The other night I gave a talk at one of Sprout's Spaghetti dinners. I thought I'd throw it up here for everyone's enjoyment. I've edited it a little bit, because a good portion of the presentation was two experiments I did with/on the audience, which doesn't translate, but aside from that and the inevitable rambling that happens when I speak in public, this is pretty much the talk I gave. Watch for asterisks (\*), they'll be links to pdfs of the studies I'm citing.

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Human Test Subjects

Last night, after much fun during the day, Orli, Russ, Keith, Cora and I sat down to play Morton's List. Now, for those of you who've never heard of this game, it's basically a list of hundreds of different things to do, and you roll a set of dice to randomly select your task for the evening. The trick to the game is that you can't back out, or switch to another task, unless it's physically impossible to complete the first one. The tasks are very varied - the last two times we played we got "relax" and "protest something".

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The Man Who Knew Too Much

With a subject as complex and influential as Alan Turing, how could this biography fail to be fascinating? The premise of the book is an examination of Turing as an outsider, someone prone to working alone, a trait which helped him come up with outside-the-box ideas of universal machines. It explores Turing's deep-seated sense of isolation and to what extent it was caused by his position as an unashamed but closeted gay man and how he feared his homosexuality would be used to discredit his ideas. As Turing once wrote in a syllogism:

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Getting Your Hands Dirty

I've had a couple of really good conversations lately about the value of doing. By doing, I mean creating: baking, sewing, hammering, soldering, writing, programming, composing. Wires in your hands, words on your lips, dough beneath your fingernails - these are all reminders that you can still influence some small part of the world. That you can make some tangible change in your surroundings. In a world where people are encouraged to acquiesce to conventional wisdom, to give in to frustration and not fight the system, and to ignore the suffering going on in the world because "there's nothing you can do to help", simply getting your hands dirty can be a kind of revolution.

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Welcome

Hi everyone! Welcome to my blog. I wanted to put this post up as a place for people to comment on the blog as a whole. I've written the code for the blog from scratch, so there may very well be problems that emerge. Please let me know if you have any issues, and your feedback is always welcome.